This is a pretty silly post but I’m writing it here in order to hold myself to it, because if I write it here I’ve made the commitment to all of you (lovely readers) as well as myself.
I went to group this morning. I’m so boiling with feelings and hurt and loss and anger (not with group or anyone in it but with the whole PD Service). I desperately need to shut off and the best ways I know without help are things that hurt me. And it’s very possible I could just go home and do that and dissociate or literally knock myself out. I am going to try to make myself take another action instead.
I commit that this afternoon I will write a card to send something to my step-sister that she needs. Then I will clean in every room in my flat. It is in a complete state as i have not cleaned or cared for it in the state I’ve been in in the last two weeks. I may not finish all of it but I will vacuum everywhere and I will clean at least three things in every room (it’s a small flat!).
And to keep going in the promises I made in my commitment to getting better, 5 things I’m thankful for today are:
- I have a flat of my own to live in (well I say my own; it’s rented but it’s home and I’m blessed to have my place and my safe space).
- I went to therapy today and talked about horrible feelings and the other members of the group listened and didn’t treat me like a freak. They actually seemed to understand.
- I saw an old friend yesterday who I have not met in years. She seemed happy and well and she’s having a baby very soon.
- My step-sister and I are getting in contact with each other more.
- Um… I didn’t have to wait ages for the bus back to town after therapy, does that count 🙂 ?!
I’m wishing for something good to happen to you today.
2 thoughts on “Silly post, but just to hold myself to it!”
Not silly ! I like this post very much 👍😃❤ xxx
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Thank you. ..
I did it.
Didn’t manage to keep it up into this week though i just had a really bad couple of days. But I guess something is better than nothing!xx